Sonogram today

We went for our sonogram and check-up with the midwives today. When we first found out we were pregnant, I thought having another boy would be best. Easiest, because I'm used to raising a boy, and having 2 brothers in the house to play together would be fun. I was a little scared of having a girl, the unknown. But then everyone else started talking about having a girl and we picked out a name, and we had been trying at least a little to conceive a girl this time around. So I worked on it and I warmed up to the idea and before I knew it, I think I convinced myself we were having a girl. And I thought about how fun that would be to try something new, to have a baby girl in the house. And today we found out the baby is a boy. And that felt a little strange, I think maybe we both had thought it would be a girl. So today as I gazed at the tiny black and white sonogram pictures, it was like starting over. Now I need to warm up to the idea of having another baby boy. But even with these mixed feelings, as I look at those little photos, I can't help but think about all the potential and the wonder and newness of this baby. What will he look like? What will his name be? How different he will be from Johnny. And I welcome him. I look forward to meeting him.